Next Step

it was just last night, waktu Arsy pulang ke kamar dan bilang, "Nay, pengumuman NTU udah keluar lho!" jlebbbbb!! makin galau aja gue padahalseharianudahgalaubangetgajelas.. pantesan malemnya gue mimpi kalo gue dipanggil ikut ENTRANCE TESTnya NTU.. anyway, i tried not to think about it but i can't! even i couldn't sleep for whole night! God, help me on this!

gue udah galau setengah mati garagara NTU!!!

finally, i could sleep. lucky i were, i didn't have any practice test today. parahnya, gue mimpi lagi gue dipanggil tes. uughh, ini pertanda apa? seharian gue cuma meringkuk di atas kasur, selimutan sambil ngegalau ga jelas. some of my friends adviced me to look for the result in my email. hey, it's easy to say. but don't you think my mind?! i don't have any courage to check my inbox and see them all.. rasanya gue mengutuk diri gue sendiri yang benerbener pengecut kaya gitu.. T.T

gue takut, benerbener takut. padahal ngapain juga pake takut, bodoh?! aaaaargggghh! i just didn't know somehow i could share my feels.. sejak ada pembagian KELAS KHUSUS di intensif dan gue ga termasuk di dalemnya, gue ngedown abiss.. gue benci banget. gue sebel. gue ga tau lagi deh. gue pesimis bakal dipanggil to take the Entrance Examination. apalagi mao daftar ILA ke Jepang? mana beraniiiii?! gue ga tau ini pertanda apa, yang jelas gue ngedown dan ini benerbener ga bagus.. saat itu gue mutusin, kalo gue ga dipanggil tes NTU, gue GA BAKALAN ikut daftar ILA. gue mau fokus UN aja, bodo amat dah..

but finally, the rain stop dropping when it was about 2 p.m. i thougth, and i decided to go to library, looked for internet connection and check my email. when i've got it and it was still loading my inbox, berasa banget kalo gue degdegan ga karuan.. were i ready for this? i must! AND YAP! i saw the email.. click.. and the email opened.. gue baca atasnya dulu..

Dear Naylah Muna,

1.   Thank you for your application for admission to the Nanyang Technological University.

God! apa ini berarti gue ga lolos seleksi berkas? gue lanjutin baca lagi..

2.   We wish to inform you that you have been shortlisted to take an Entrance Examination before a decision on your application can be made. Please login with your application number ...

gue ikut tes masuk NTU!!!

gue pun tercengang di depan monitor.. GUE HARUS GIMANA??

eh gila ya, gue bukan anak kelas khusus yang emang dipersiapin buat ikut gituan. gue ga pernah menghadapi A Level Mathemathics! aaaaarrrrrgghh~ i felt like my brain could just jump away anytime.. -_-"
what should i do then? somebody help me pleaseee... T_T

jadinya maunya gue sebenernya apa sih? gue juga ga ngertiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!
bete

sebel

sedih

galau

lalalalalalalalaaa..
it's making me crazy!!